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Journey to Mental Health Recovery

Leon Macfayden

Schizophrenia and PTSD survivor sharing my journey to recovery. Join over 800 subscribers learning to improve their mental health. Every week, I share personal stories and effective tips to help you and your loved ones live the life you deserve.

My Dad’s Death and the Chaotic Early Stages of Grief

I sat in my parent’s bedroom. It was deathly silent apart from clocks ticking — 6 of them, to be precise. All at different, maddening intervals. My mind was in a tormented spiral, and the out-of-synch clocks seemed to reflect the chaos. Tick, Tick, Tick, Tick. I looked after our dog Wags, and even he wanted to escape. But important work was going on outside the room. My dad lay dead on the floor, and the paramedics and police went through their procedures. Photo by DrAfter123 on iStock The...
20 days ago • 7 min read

Overcoming the Darkness: A Journey Through Mental Health and Survival

A Personal Struggle: The Battle with PTSD and Depression A few years ago, I decided to stop taking my medications for PTSD and Depression. The side effects—weight gain and feeling like a zombie—had become too much to bear. For the first six days, I felt like my old self again. But then, everything came crashing down. Sitting on my back doorstep in the dark, I felt as if I had been hit by a bus. The crushing weight of despair was unbearable. In my darkest moment, I attempted suicide....
3 days ago • 2 min read

7 Little Things That Can Have a Big Effect on Your Mental Health

I want to share an inspiring personal journey of overcoming severe depression and schizophrenia, managing PTSD, and finding a path to mental well-being. Through trial and error, education, and common sense, I've discovered what it takes to stay healthy, and I adhere to this formula rigorously. Here are some steps that you can take to improve your mental health today. Photo by GeorgePeters on iStock 1. Discover True Friends When struggling with mental health, you quickly learn who your real...
5 days ago • 2 min read

It's Time to Take Control of Your Mental Health

Are you tired of relying solely on professionals to achieve the life you want? While expert help is invaluable, you can make great strides in your mental health recovery by taking an active role in your journey. This week, let’s explore how you can empower yourself to reduce suffering, build confidence, and live the life you deserve. Photo by Eye for Ebony on Unsplash 1. Prioritize Quality Sleep Lack of sleep can significantly impact your mental health. On average, adults need about 8 hours...
10 days ago • 2 min read

6 Things That Can Damage Your Mental Health

Photo by Faye Cornish on Unsplash According to the World Health Organization, mental health conditions are increasing worldwide. There has been a 13% rise in mental health conditions in the last decade, and 20% of children and adolescents now have a mental health condition. It is easy to read these bleak statistics and switch them off, but behind the numbers are real people. Behind every number, there’s a name. The chances are high that you either have a mental health condition or know...
18 days ago • 5 min read

The 4-Part Combo That Leads Some People to Die by Suicide

TW: Contains discussion and reference to suicide. If you’re struggling with suicidal thoughts, please reach out. You’re not alone, and trained experts are waiting to help you (resources in the US and UK) Suicide isn’t often caused by one problem. No matter how big or impossible the issue may seem, we can devote all our mental resources to it if other things are going well. The damage happens when multiple problems besiege you. . You lose your job . Your partner leaves you . You become...
about 1 month ago • 4 min read

These True Stories Of Loneliness Reflect A Hidden Pandemic.

Loneliness in an urban environment. Over the years, when I worked as a Police Officer and a volunteer on a suicide helpline, I heard many gut-wrenching experiences of loneliness. These experiences mirror my feelings when I was younger and at the mercy of bullies and fear that I didn’t understand. I decided to give some of these experiences a voice through this article in the hope that others will find comfort in the fact that they aren’t as alone as they think. I don’t promise happy endings...
about 1 month ago • 4 min read

6 Steps to Immediately Improve Your Communication Skills for More Successful Relationships

Social interactions are a minefield. If you’re like me, you’re far from a social butterfly, and relationships don’t come easy. You might find yourself mumbling and staring at the floor when you should be making an impact. Perhaps you don’t talk to someone you find attractive due to sheer embarrassment. I managed to change and improve my relationships, and if you want to succeed in life, you need to do the same. It’s hard to overstate the importance of networking in achieving your dreams. One...
about 1 month ago • 4 min read

How Trauma Pushed Me to the Brink of Alcoholism

Twenty years ago, I joined the police. I was immediately confronted with the horror of the double suicide of two teenage girls. I was diagnosed with PTSD, but I carried on working. Trauma piled on top of trauma, and I saw death in almost every way imaginable. The catch with real PTSD is you can’t face reminders of the trauma. That rules out talking about it, especially to strangers, aka therapists. So, I avoided the healthy route to recovery. At the same time, policing is a macho world. There...
about 2 months ago • 4 min read

I Never Knew Grief Could Be This Complicated

I’m more confused by my dad today than ever before. In the five years since he died, I’ve gone from feeling a searing agony to anger and everything in between. He was a man of contradictions. He once told me I’d never understand him, and it took his death to realize he was right. Now, I can’t ask him questions. I may never know why he acted in certain ways, and that’s a bitter pill to swallow. Shocking news. I was about to eat Chinese food when I got a call from my mum telling me my dad had...
about 2 months ago • 7 min read

Schizophrenia and PTSD survivor sharing my journey to recovery. Join over 800 subscribers learning to improve their mental health. Every week, I share personal stories and effective tips to help you and your loved ones live the life you deserve.

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